i can only be an imitation of your desires.

blank lines (through invisible days)

static across town

you said nothing

you shut me out

& shut me out

& shut me out

again & again

it makes me wonder

why i even try anymore

i don't know when i'll be seeing you again

or if i even want to

the least you could do is not lie to me.

i only came here

to see you

if you search for "tujunga" on google, my myspace is on the 4th page of search results (at least at the time of this writing). i thought it would've been way farther back than that. pretty odd and kind of funny. it would definitely be a kick to see it on the 1st or 2nd search results page someday. it'll probably never happen, but it's a thought that definitely amuses me.

& i wonder---

how much longer

can this go on for?

go ahead. hide everything from me. cut me out of everything.

death death death death death.

once everything is done, i'm making my exit.

months and months and months and months.

you are killing me.